life is full of wonders

2010-09-21T20:44:00.000-07:00

2010-09-14T17:47:00.000-07:00

Nothing gonna change my love for you - George Benson

If i had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights will seem so long
With you i see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
but it never felt this strong

our dreams are young and we both know
they'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
touch me now
i don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
u ought to know by now how much i love you
one thing you can be sure of
i'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
u ought to know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life thru but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you

if the road ahead is not so easy
our love will lead the way for us
like a guiding star

i'll be there for you if you should need me
you don't have to change a thing
i love you just the way you are
so come with me and share the view
i'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
touch me now
i don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
u ought to know by now how much i love you
one thing you can be sure of
i'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
u ought to know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life thru but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you

2010-09-09T21:27:00.000-07:00

09/08/2010 - Garibaldi Italian Restaurant & Bar
1st month anniversary

2010-08-17T21:48:00.000-07:00

31/07/2010 singapore flyer

first ride <3

<3 sweet memory <3

Our first pic

30 saga seeds (相思豆)(09/08/2010)

till today, i still find it very amazing on how we actually started...

TTSH
ward 9b
Henderson wave
Singapore flyer
ward 8a
Changi coast
Jurong hill
seletar reservoir
wu ming lu
PS-GV《海洋天堂》Ocean Paradise

2010-07-25T21:15:00.000-07:00

Dear mummy,
U r definitely, the best mum in e world.
U can read my mind so well.
Thanks for the reassurance.
Thanks for everything.
I believe tt one day we will all be together under the same roof again.

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the call..
17days - u reminded me of this
i believe in wad Han's said - everything happens for a reason.

sammi cheng- zhi de

2010-07-09T01:44:00.000-07:00

My result is out! I did much better than i was in diploma's time..
so happy :)
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Han is now my Guru!!

2010-06-06T04:30:00.000-07:00

1 more week left..
I gonna go back to reality. wearing scrub suit standing in 9b, doin the routine work.
I have lost touch for 8 mths.
time flies..

I am excited, at the same time scared to go back.
Excited cos I am back to do wad i wan to
Scared cos many things have changed, higher expectation n add on responsibility.
student life was good.
but i dun like exam..
anyway, it's all over. n result gonna be out on 6/7/2010
worry abt psychosocial result. Haslinda said u all shld know where u stand.

I love this course. This is my interest.
I love to interact with my patient, listen to their problem.
being in HD and PD for almost 1 mth, I have learnt a lot.
being able to start HD on Pt, is a kind of achievement for me.
this including the monitoring during dialysis, till the conclusion.
It's not as easy as wad we tink.
I've always admire the HD nurses. I tink they r great!
same goes for PD, eventhough PD is much easier than HD, it involves lots of interaction, educating, listening ears.
not only care abt the pt, but also their families n financial issue.

I learnt to know from 1 pt tt she used to be a non compliant pt.
she used to skip dialysis.
the reason for being non compliant is bcos she has financial issue. did any of us ever wonder why r they not compliant? some of us straight away jumped to the conclusion tt they dont cherish their life, they r difficult pt n no point to pity / care abt them.

another pt shared abt his story regarding medication compliance.
they wan to be compliant to meds taking. but there r so many meds..
it taste awful, ca acetate taste like chalk.
n i tink they r not aware of the importance of meds taking. we need to let them know if they dun comply to meds taking, the dr will add on more meds. cos Dr dun know tt they skip meds.

there r really non compliant pts out there.
but i tink we need to explore n understand why they behave tt way. maybe they r too depressed?

I learnt lots from this course. Gain quite a lot of experience.
able to assist TRUS biopsy, flexible cystoscopy, male catheterization, fill n pull, removal of DJ stent. I maynot remember how to do it anymore in few yrs time.
but i am glad, i had a chance to assist these procedure.

thanks to those who have taught me, encourage me n those who had given me a chance to do so. thank you very much.
though, i have grumbled abt the packed timetable, assignment after assignment, presentation after presentation, i really love this course.

I got to know many frens from diff hospital, diff characters n even went on my first holiday with them. U guys r great!

n I have this fren who wants to be close to me within few mths. I am sorry i have ignored and avoided u.
many more things happened during this period.

I have survived. I will not forget those who msg me on my first day of sch. I was nervous, each of ur msg, gave me support.

I have not regretted the choice tt i have made last yr.
thank God!

2010-04-17T08:16:00.000-07:00

exams were over..

no need to worry about assignment and exams anymore..

Yeah!!!!!!!!!!

n I am back from TIOMAN's trip.

Had my first trip with girl friends..

it was marvelous..

i had my first snorkeling experience.

we were too eager to actually booked to go to 5 places with speedboat instead of 2 places.

hui qin and daphne didnt know how to swim..

come to tink abt it, we were too daring n eager. wahaha..

the day before, we went thru some training class in e pool..

it was fun n luckily we had tt training class.

first stop n the fifth stop were the scariest of all..

1st stop, we were stopped in e middle of the sea. the driver cum diver said "ok" n tt's it.

we looked at each other, n stunned for a while.

haha.. but we went down e sea.. preceptor n preceptee.

me n daphne

evelyn n hui qin

shu hui n huiling

got to be really careful when snorkelling,

remember not to be too ambitious n move to far away from the boat.

always stay in a group.

when i looked back, our boat was far from us. n i have to hold on Daphne using my right hand n use my left hand to try to swim back to the boat. n I am not a very good swimmer. but when i looked down into the sea, wow.. very beautiful.. I was actually swimming with fishes in front of me, beside me, n behind me..

it was scary n yet we really had lots of fun.

the second stop was the most beautiful place of all.

we were at the shore. the water was very clear and u could feel the sand was so soft to stand on.

the fishes were just 2 meters away from the shore. so colorful n they like to eat bread. haha..

the 3rd stop was at kampong salang.

Had our ramly burger there.

the 4th stop was marine park.

so many fishes there.. very very nice..

the 5th stop was e scariest.

cos got current. it brought us far away from the boat.

Hui qin n evelyn brought away by the current..

in the end we use rope to bring them back.

after that we went k at night.

really had a great holiday break.

it was enjoyable..

2010-04-08T05:48:00.000-07:00

Psychosocial exam is over.

But!! It was a hard paper.

For the first time, i got no time to check through my MCQs answer.

Almost couldn't finish my SAQs.

The questions are not straight forward..

Why will they set such a tough qns..

wan to kill us? for wad?

anyway, next to come is healthcare mgt.

This one lagi worse, no MCQ, all SAQs (60marks)

we only got 1 hour to write. How????

I dunno how it gonna be.. Just hope tt i can pass.

Hope tt they are generous in giving marks.

Really 2 looking forward to Tioman's trip..

2010-04-03T21:09:00.000-07:00

Finally.. IT'S OVER!!!!!!!!!!!

No more assignment, no more presentation to prepare.

can't believe it that next week is exam!!!!!!!!

Need to start my revision but dunno how to start.

psychosociology - 4 books to study

health care mgt - dunno where to read

8669 - as thick as martini textbook (only got 2 days to squeeze everything in)

Never expect that after2 yrs plus, i am back to a student life...

and facing examination once again..

Who knows in one year time, i gonna go back to student life again, this time round will be to take my degree. hehehe..

let's not say it now..

cos the thought of need to go thru the cycles of presentation, assignment and exam, scared me..

I feel gd to complete my lit r/v on palliative care, though parts of it cut and paste from some articles. hahahaa...

N once again, it's over!!

Now, need to start my engine...

wish me good luck!

2010-03-08T02:15:00.000-08:00

Finally my health assessment is over. APN assignment also submitted. 2 downs.

I got Joelle as my assessor. haha.. so lucky.

Chief complaint of abdo pain. In the end my diagnosis are ascites and COPD.

anyway, it's over.

Thanks to u two who continuously giving me encouragement and support, listen to me when i am down without fail. Plan time to meet up with me. Thank you so much. I appreciate a lot.

Thanks for not letting me give up on anything.

Time flew fast. My exam timetable is out 8/4/2010 Psychosocial, 12/4/2010 Healthcare management (the most scary one), and lastly, 14/4/2010 (8669) nursing management.

cant wait to finish all this. But i am scared of the results too.

Next things to complete:

8670 test,

Leadership presentation,

palliative mgt presentation, and 3000 words lit r/v,

research proposal presentation and 3000 words written assignment.

After all this, no more coming to sch.

proceed to 1 more month of attachment in amk NKF and SGH

then 2 months on job training.

Finally, graduation!!!!

I wan sunflower too. hehe..(Rita)

wish to see everyone there.

Back to work life. haha.. (still got 3 months to go)

2010-03-05T08:18:00.000-08:00

Finally completed my 4 weeks of attachment.

NUH staffs bully people like shit lo. Don't judge us by our current uniform. I am a staff nurse k! even cleaner also didnt respect us. Student is not a human meh? no dignity?

whoever are the ones, u will get back ur retribution. wait and see lo.

ask politely when u want others to help u in a favour.

3mths old bully Hajar to clear the dressing trolley after she completed her dressing. Is this how u all are thought in sch/by ur sister/by ur hosptal??

yaya for wad? we didnt yaya in front of u guys. why must u behave like tt tt to us?

i will definitely write a "very good" feedback abt tt 2 wards during my evaluation.

anyways,

I met W.C at NUH, he happened to be in tt ward too.

I had my first trial of male catheterization under his supervision.

He said tt we nurses will do a better job than them. cos they dont wash their hands (oops!)

But i didnt manage to get any backflow of urine.

eventually he tried to insert, but failed.

the uncle then sent for cystoscopy, for further evaluation of the cause.

msg shown as false passage.

the catheter was inserted with the aid of wire guide. Ouch.. so painful.

Now i understand the rationale, why male catheterization are to be done by doctors.

Dun tink tt male only got 1 hole and u will definitely get it there.

enlarged prostate are spongy. so it can be easily pock thru.

so msg to learn is do not underestimate any skills.

2010-02-12T07:05:00.000-08:00

Bio test is over. Hope tt the result will turn out satisfying..

started my first attachment in renal unit for 1 wk..

started my first priming, touching gambro, fresenius machine..

started driving car using blood line.. hehe..

started the 1st initiation on pt with perm cath. Thks Bibe..

although i was frightened by her, cos 1 hr later she couldnt breathe, i tot it was due to my technique.. luckily it wasnt.

done conclusion for perm cath and AVF with many coaching from all e renal unit staffs.

had my assessment too on the whole package of HD (priming, initiation, conclusion) :D

done the first AVF cannulation. It was Mr Tan K C. he was very nice. he even taught me where to put the tornique on. I was very happy.. (I was scared)

had all my "first time" in renal unit. thks everyone.

seen many familiar faces in TTSH. made me feel like I am back home.

miss everyone lots..

many assignment to go.

2010-01-28T21:34:00.000-08:00

I am very stress..

Bio exam is on next wednesday.

Eventhough i know that which topic goin to be tested on, I dun know how to write the essay.

I am very scared.

How??

Help me!!

2009-12-25T00:16:00.000-08:00

Bio

uroflow reading

my PVRU (bladder scan)

2009-12-25T00:15:00.001-08:00

no longer the same.

2009-12-19T07:26:00.000-08:00

the first time tt we are celebrating our birthday together.

I love u, my dear twin

2009-12-19T07:02:00.000-08:00

2009-12-10T03:15:00.001-08:00

2 mths has passed.

bio test is over. next come critique, practical skills test, theory paper, psychosocial presentation, bio exam and more to come..

celebrated post test. went with daphne, lilin, siti, sha, lisa, evelyn and radiah.

after dinner, went shopping and played arcade. haha.. gd de-stressing ways.

seen many things.

learnt quite few skills which i have never learn before.

learn to see things differently.

tis sat gg to visit bishan home for volunteer work.

Being away from ward, made me realised few things.

questioning myself whether i made e right choice.

perhaps tis is wad God wants me to know.

hopefully when i go back to e ward, the fei or hei is not e ruler of e ward.

thks to those who is continuosly giving me support, encouraging me to move on.

esp mum, grandma, jie, xiao mei.

I will continue to work hard, study hard.

no time to play liao :(

Jia you.

2009-11-20T05:13:00.000-08:00

forgive and forget

2009-11-04T07:23:00.000-08:00

It's coming to the end of my 3rd week of sch

went for 1st field visit last friday. it was fun.

Sis Christine, Lay hoon and sarah are good teachers.

learned a lot.

been pressurized a lot abt assignment, ICA presentation, theory test and exam

Finally met up with my team member shu hui, sha, siti hajah, jannah and liza to discuss abt behaviour science (psychosocial aspect in ESRF pt)

at least some thing is moving.

dunno if han write out the script alre..

my counselling ICA presentation is on wk 6.

some of my grp ppl still hasnt decide whether to use tt article for critique or not. so cant start anythin yet.

dunno if i will survive till the end

bio vy chim.. everytime when DR Yong did revision before start on new topic, i always cant answer the qn tt he asked. I cant seems to understand. how???

i very stress le..

GOD help me!!!

thks sis for the k session today. helpme de-stress

dont worry, i wont judge u. sleep in peace k

talk to me pls if something's bothering u.

i wan to hear from u.

2009-10-24T07:57:00.000-07:00

Finally get to meet today...

But Fion and Maiyah wasn't around. hais..

miss them..

Hugs to e both of u..

had craby meal today. very full, yummy..

plan to go k on tue. Fion, u must join us hor..

2009-10-22T02:57:00.000-07:00

Today, is my 4th day of sch..

Has learnt abt a bit of sociology (i never like before), psycho, bio (chim), advance nr practise (counselling), bladder scanning and research (very boring)

Got a lot of assignment to write. mostly abt 1000-1500words. research got 1 individual assignment must write 3000 words. siao lo!!

attachment period also need to submit written assignment of 4000 words.

when the lecturer mentioned all this, the 1st person on mind is han.

she can help me to do grammar correction and editting.

2nd person : Fiona (to give me idea on wad to write)

kk..

i got one ICA presentation coming.. in week 6.

5 more weeks to go..

it's abt counselling. any counselling scenario (10 mins)

need to do recording..

i have chosen who to help me.

Han: my counselle

Fion: the recorder (to make me look good at all time)

Jas: help in my script like wad i shld say

zihui, chengxia: supporter

haha.. haha....

u guys got to help me....

these few days, i go home straight away after i finished my class.

i thought on how we used to dine together post work, lying around on the tearoom's sofa.

so much to complain post work.

we got endless things to talk....

miss all these very much....

hope u guys are doin fine in the ward. noone bully u guys..

i miss work place and the chronic pts.

miss guma's laughter and e connection, zihui's softness and care, fiona's bird face and seriousness, han's laughter and jokes , jas's voice, ahbu's care, ah ji's fierceness and "ahbu"

not forgetting shenhui: "where's e imr? meds given!" (joking..) i miss u saying hello to me..

cant wait for saturday to come..

miss u guys very very much.

2009-10-19T05:54:00.000-07:00

I am updating bcos someone is reading..

Learned abt roles of uro-nephro nurse:

to teach / share ur knowledge with ur junior staffs

act as an advocator (speak on behalf of pt)

act as a counsellor, resourcer

clinical nurse

leading and managerical roles

advanced practise nurse

almost wad i am doing now.. so role as a nurse it's still e same as before

1st speaker : Dr Tan seng hoe - gleneagles

covered on complication of UTI

dun look down at simple diagnosis like UTI

when u have a male pt, having a UTI, it is a serious matter and has to be investigated further.

as male pt's anatomical structure unlikely to cause UTI (long urethra)

collection of mid-stream urine:

should wash perineal area

ask ur pt to pass first bit of urine (do not collect)

pt continue to pass, nurse then collect the urine.

this is e correct way of getting specimen

not to ask pt to pass abit then hold (this is not a mid stream urine)

when DR look at FEME result EC (+) means the sample taken isnot from midstream

this is when DR starts to ask to repeat FEME and write in treatment order (midstream, clean catch)

gram stain test is done by putting dye into the sample and look at the type of bacteria growth.

can be gram (+) and gram (-)

however while waiting for result to come back, one shld start with an antibiotic tt covers pseudomonas bacteria as well. (as pseudomonas bacteria complicates UTI)

he is good, but his voice is too soft.

2nd speaker: Dr Ng Tsun Gun

covered on Acute renal failure in adults and elderly

divided into 3 phases:

pre renal

interstitial renal

post renal

we need to pick up and correct at early stage , otherwise pt will collapse (fatal)
once pt is dehydrated, shld start aggressive fld challenge and put pt on at least 2-3L of drip

monitor output at the same time.

if u r giving 4L drip and pt is passing 4L of urine, we shld increase further fluids (+ another 500-800mls, to compensate for water lost)

need to check daily u/e/cr to look at Cr level and K+.

biopsy when need to identify exact cause of ARF

when Dr asked to add test for mg, PO4, Ca is to look for metabolic acidosis, hypercalcemia, hyperphosphatemia..

we will dialyse pt if pt doesnt respond to resonium, calcium+insulin (for hyperK+)

NDAIDs like ponstan, synflex, etc causes ARF (we need to closely monitor pt esp elderly who are on NSAIDs, they r more fragile)

learnt a lot from him. best speaker. very clear and loud enough.

3rd speaker - Prof. Chan from NUH

covered on diabetes nephropathy

he is supposed to talk more abt diabetes, instead he keep emphasizing on treating hypt.

treating hypt improves the pt's mortality rate by almost 50%

dialysis pt still can conceive, however, to take into consideration tt pt will lose certain kidney's function, baby maybe premature, etc

anyone ever thought abt those on CAPD getting pregnant?

on top of carrying baby, u are carrying fluids at the same time..

i tink the 3rd speaker not touching the topic well.. but he is the HOD of renal meds dept in NUH

it was a long day..

pre-course test was quite difficult. anyway, it's not considered as ICA marks.

missing the rest vy much..

happy to receive jiayou msg from Zihui, Caiji and Rita.

i got to love the kidney anatomy..

2009-10-18T06:46:00.000-07:00

Shin is officially a student now......

9b, temporary goodbye to all of u..

U guys got to wait for me ya.. i will come back. we will work as a team again. i will miss u guys very much. wont forget u guys de..

i will study hard, work hard and meet u guys "hard". haha..

must meet up k.

each day, i will count down to 10/06/2010

missing ahbu very much.

so sweet of her to call me, telling me tt she wasn't around on my last day. wans me to come back to 9b. visit her when i am free..

thanks ahbu for appreciating and value-ing me.

thanks fion ke for the art piece. u rock!! i like it.

han, take care

jasmine, dun be too fierce ya.. miss u

wx: all e best

rita: hello, i am now in the same sch as u. wahaha..

big sis: thanks! great sis

take care everyone.. update me regularly hor.

jia you..

all the best for ur degree to come.

2009-10-13T08:11:00.000-07:00

i am a human...............................

arh.......... arh................................

i wan to cry

2009-10-09T07:47:00.000-07:00

went to nyp today..

the feelin was like the first day i joined in diploma course..

it was 2 yrs ago since i last stepped into nyp.

i was nervous, and excited at the same time.

my class consists of 30 ppls

for the past 2 yrs for nephro-uro (it only consists of 15)

i tot i gonna have half of the class (aunties and uncles)

haha..i very bad..

no la. actually,i tot dialysis centre will send quite a no.of their staffs for the course..

the course takes 8mths to complete.

starting from 19/10/2009 till 10/06/2010

i only have 1 wk of break for the whole 8 mths

i am in charge of photocopying materials..

on the 1st day of sch, Dr Tan Seng Hoe and Ng Tsun Gun goin to give a lecture.. yay!!

on my 2nd wk, there will be field visit.

uniform need to be ready by then.

i am starting to be scared. scared tt it will be tough..

but i MUST be able to do it.

yest i told maiyah tt i want her to be there during my graduation..

gals, i need to see u girls there on my grad's day

i am gg to count down.

ahbu i will miss u too..

i will jia you de..

i will join u guys again as a team player

2009-09-28T03:44:00.001-07:00

God...

how long more do we have to endure with all this??

very stressful.

please guide me, give me a way.

why some ppl can just hack care??????????

come out with such a lame excuse???????

2009-09-17T11:41:00.000-07:00

I am finally goin for adv.dip on tis coming 19/10/2009

waited vy long for tis piece of news.
exited to learn, but scared too.
it will be tough..

i will be away for 8 mths. will take it as i am having break, away from the ward..

thanks to sis tan for the thoughtful gift. appreciate ++

abt tt crow: let her yak till she is tired of it.
life is unfair..
she get to escape when she has medication error.
so irresponsible..
knw how to say only..
dun dare to raise ehor to admit her mistake.
as a supervisor, u shld set good example.
pls lo.. u also make mistake, so dun always pin point ur stff, ehy tis not done, tt not done..

we all came to work with no intention to harm ppl, scold ppl.
how much time do u spend with pt?
dun talk as if u r the goddness of mercy, so great
when we did extra mile, where were u?
having holiday, picnic, spending time with ur family..

so, u have no RIGHTS to say anythin abt us.
show me a gd example 1st.
10 bad things came out from ur mouth after the 1 gd thing tt u mentioned.
are u a nurse before? are u sure tt u are a nurse before?????

hope tt 8mths later, u are no longer in 9b

NI/C are not GOD
why ask me so many things when i am not taking case?
when there is iv nurse, but u questioned me as if i am the iv nurse
changes not done, ask PN
ask me for wad?i take case is it? brainless ppl.

all go DIE la..

2009-09-12T08:36:00.000-07:00

when u are being slapped, u still has to worry if the person's hand is in pain.
the feeling is like

i feel stupid

2009-09-01T02:10:00.000-07:00

Last night, i encountered amazing thing tt never happen in my life before

we were sitting under the void deck, having heart to heart talk.

suddenly han, was holding on to this 60+ yrs old uncle, walking him to a bench to sit.

we both ran towards them.

she was questioning him, wad happened to him, how is he feeling at tt moment..

he was tachy, sweating, and SOB

I was observing him, how he talked, and every movement of his.

while the 2 of them trying to get history from him.

it took us quite some time to convince him to let us call the ambulance.

halfway, he wanted to pee..

he couldnt even stand up properly with our help.

yet, he refused to pee on his pants.

cant help, but we walked him to one corner.

he was leaning on us.

we grabbed him tightly.

he has slurred speech, left sided weakness, sweating ++, SOB, still tachy even after 30mins of resting..

we diagnosed him as ? stroke.

we finally decided that we shld just call ambulance.

fion took out his shoe to palpate his foot for pulse.

han was cool and calm.

called ambulance and provide info..

at tt point of time, i tot of him collapsing, i tot of the limited things we have around us. no oxygen, torch, and many more..

luckily, he didnt collapse.

cos i have never encounter any event as a first aider.

he was then sent to TTSH

everythin was destinated.

that we have to sit at tt corner and met him.

God has sent us to save him.

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can i have more freedom?? please..

i find it so difficult to do anything..

when??????

2009-08-14T08:08:00.000-07:00

Tired ++

2009-08-05T06:47:00.000-07:00

I am sorry

I dun mean it.

I regretted very much.

sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry..

Why cant i just keep quiet, hide everything??

She doesnt wan to wake up anymore.

She is very tired.

She finally open up, now i close her back.

This is the greatest mistake tt i made.

God, let everything resume back A.S.A.P

let her rest. dun throw her with more things anymore.

she isnt as strong as wad u tink.

I need her to be ok,

stand up again and walk beside me.

she is important to me.

I am always here for you. pls let me know..

2009-08-04T08:16:00.000-07:00

Big sis (Da Jie)

thanks for the new handphone, haha...
looks big n complicated..
but i am starting to like it.

u know me best, love ya
(not bcos u bought me handphone then love u hor..)
( i always love u and the rest)

be strong ya!!

2009-08-01T06:47:00.000-07:00

Happy nurses day to all the nurses out there..

I saw in TODAY's paper these posts in the 4 consequtive days..

Debunking myths about nursing:

29/07/09
1. Nurses do all the dirty work, they only clean up after patient.
2. Anyone can become a nurse, since the job doesnt require much skills.
3. Nurses are like Dr's handmaidens, they only take instruction from Drs.

30/07/09
1. Nursing is a dead end job.
2. You have to start young, if you want to be a nurse.
3. Nurses work long hours. There's little time for personnal pursuits or family life.

31/07/09
1.Nursing is a proffesion for women, it's not suitable for man.
2. Nursing is tiring and manually laborious.
3. Nurses come into frequent contact with ppl who are ill. I don't want to put my health at risk.

Please spare us a thought...
Aren't we human beings just like u?
Aren't we a daughter, son, sister to our dear ones?
Without us, who will take care of you when u fall sick?
Without us can Dr carry out their own orders?
Without us, will ur family dare to clean up for u?

" nurses must love what they do, even if they are doing it everyday. Passion is what drives us"

2009-07-28T10:21:00.000-07:00

23/07/09

Lost my handphone sony erricson k 700.heart ache +++++ bought it during last year bonus.
lost it 1 day before I gotmy tis yr bonus.. wad the... it meant a lot to me..

24/07/09

My interview was successful for renal adv. dip, waiting for NYP to accept me.
bless me, cos i forgotten all my pathophysiology liao..

24/07/09 - 26/07/09

went batam.. lots of mixed feeling. seeing dad,mum, aunt and the environment...
if only i have power to control all tis.
it's very different to see ur love ones having irreversible disease and seeing the pt in ward with the same disease..

27/07/09

We all felt the extreme lost of u. U are always remembered by each and everyone in TTSH and ur patients.
U have saved many lives. give ur family strength to continue the journey.

Bye, Dr Ng..

2009-07-13T07:19:00.000-07:00

I am very nervous, and scared abt tmr's interview. 14/7/09 1215hrs
Jia you

seriously, i am not prepared.

had preceptorship course today. lots to learn, lots to teach and share too.

learning is fun.

* adult learning
* "action speaks louder than word."
* u need to teach a person 7x in order for her to absorb.
* once someone has adopted the wrong steps, it takes 28x to correct it back.

learning points:
dun get angry when u have to repeat second or third times to the same person. cos it's a proven process by the experts.

ask how and why qn, to stimulate thinking.

2009-07-10T08:46:00.000-07:00

8/7/09

called back to do 1/7 night duty. covering for lor's mc

heng dao, nothing to say
5 admissions, 1 resus (intubated, sent to ICU)
BMU booked bed till vy fun, i received case till no time to drink water..
picked up call till scared.
my instinct was right when i told Fion tt i a bit scared to come for ND.

they run 4 teams, with empty beds
i took whole of female side with 5 admissions (iso admit x2)
who is more suay than me??
resus on goin inside iso room with N95

so,next time dun ever say tt u never kena tis or tt before.
i mentioned before that i havent get a chance to resus pt wearing N95.
so tt was my chance.. poor me..

started report only after settling my pt to ICU. abt 3+ close to 4
no time to even tink of proper ARMS report.
finished reports within 2 hrs, in between did changes for new admissions.

heng dao.. 1 of my admission came with IV insulin, need to do hourly h/c. she cried , said tt her legs cant move. cramp, numb..
asking me to do massage for her.
?????

anyways, ya.. 2 yrs of SN. learnt a lot esp resus. till today, my luck is still the same as the 1st time i joined TTSH.i tink worse le..

9/7/09
we didnt make it to final. our last minute resus scene on stage plus montage..
shaan mentioned tt we are still the best to her. and many HOs and others Dr think highly of 9b nurses.. tt's vy nice to hear..

thanks to everyone tt contributed..

They finally scheduled me for interview for my adv dip application on 14/7/09 at 1215hrs..
very nervous le.. dunno how to answer them.

as wad i told Rita, i am good in action but not good in talking..

God, I leave everything upto u whether to let me go for adv. dip or nt?
if tis yr nt successful, will try next yr..

hope can teach my Caiji as much as i can before i leave her. :)
if let say, i confirm goin la.. lol..J
ia you everyone..

2009-07-02T05:54:00.001-07:00

Finally, we came out with this piece of last minute work..
sacrifising Ez's precious sleeping time, my sleeping time too, NBM for 24hrs and DO, Fiona's mum's time. "sorry fion mama."

thanks to all the crew members (fiona, maiyah, cai ji and joselyn) , most importantly to our producer (Ez).
the one who did nothing shall not be mentioned here.. lol..
at first, my intention is only to play along with it.
but now, i wan our team to be selected, make it to the final.
cos i tink the montage part is well done.

pray pray *.*

2009-06-26T08:52:00.000-07:00

God, please give me stregth to move on..

I am goin to fall soon.
I cant take it.
i would rather dun have this at all.
causing so much pain.
seeing my close friends in tears and sadness.
this is not what i wanted.

why are they so cruel?
how can they do this, make this kind of decison?
after all, i am not happy at all.

thanks Fiona..

2009-06-11T09:53:00.000-07:00

I got 1 more day to consider before i can make final decision.

whether should i go for adv. dip now or continue to learn my Ni/c skills then go for it next year?

many2 thoughts..

stress +++++

dunno why????

scared that wont come back to 9b

how sia??

alre start to imagine myself in other ward le..

Jasmine and Fiona have given up n me, saliva dried alre..

hahhahahaa..

I am still considering..

can someone just kick me out now???

1yr later, i will come back to tis input of mine and look at the future and say...

i dunno wad will i say?

whether i have made the right choice for myself..

let fate decide on me.

guan inn niang niang bao yu wo

2009-06-01T04:28:00.000-07:00

from the left: Daniel, Shaan, Yu Yet, Pei lin, Jun pei and Jasmine

I got the best team of HOs and MOs for may 2009..
amazingly nice, approachable, helpful..

so sad that today is their last day..
how i wish they can be our team drs forever..
been through resuscitation from DIL wd mgt till DIL active..
this month really not easy lo...
so many collapsed.

wish all of them all the best.
hope to see u guys on call as HO3 and MO3

2009-05-22T06:25:00.000-07:00

19/05/09

for once i felt tt n i/c job is worse than taking case..
just dun understand why when the seniors be n i/c, mostly calm n quiet.. nothing as bad as mine happened during their shift..

for tis particular day,
i had 4 admissions, 3 transfer in, 2 transfer out and 3 discharges by myself..
on top of all tis, things just didnt go right that day..
one of my pt left meds behind, another one left without taking all the appts..
at 8.30pm, approached by pt daughter, she wanted to move his dad into a cubicle a.s.a.p

female side was as busy as it is. luckily han is around to look after female side and miao2, settling some stuff for me, answering phone calls
and wenxin, tried to handle as many transfer in as she can
thanks to han and wenxin.

end of the day, i felt great. we did a great job, even without seniors around..

to my the other 5 partners, battle has started. u guys got to be n i/c soon..
we will support each other..

20/05/2009

1st day of ND
very busy..
31- 2pint PCT, plt 4 units
one admission - DO, GCS of 8, hypotensive, from ED resus
multiple IV
and a lump of small2 things that add up to a big2 lump
only managed to check thru meds trolley at 2am,
started report at 3+

thanks to zihui, caiji and maiyah for helping to the max..
nice group of ppl to work with..

thank God for proving them wrong and let me survive thru my 1st ND.

21/05/2009

had a terrible ND yest..
actually everything was very good. i had finished checking meds trolley at 11pm, given IV and oral meds, take bld, set plug..
till 0220,..
zihui, shouted: shinta, pt not on the bed
my pt missing. My D.O pt. he was on hand and body restrainers. GCS of 13, drowsy..
1st thing that come to my mind, shit, he fell down.
i rushed into the cubicle, pt was not on the floor or toilet or anywhere inside the cubicle..
I n zihui ran to search the whole ward.
I alerted my HA, Devi.
we both went down to level 1 to find him
Devi said that pt has changed clothes..
I checked with the security man, he said he didnt see any pt, except 1 chinese looking man in brown shirt and shorts left in a taxi..
I told him, thats nt my pt cos he didnt changed and he is a malay.
when we went up to the ward, Devi told me he saw this guy has changed his clothes.
True enough when we went back to tt cubicle, we saw hospital clothes was put aside at one corner of the toilet. diapers was thrown aside too..
walked hopelessly to the bed, i saw restrainers and urine bag on the bed, an iv plug that dripping with iv fluids hang down the side rails.

notified police, ND sister and Dr. called up pt 's sister..
put up E-Hor
many thoughts came to my mind, did he jumped down from tis building (nt possible, cos he quite fat), will he commit suicide and many more..

with that many thoughts on my head, i still has to finish up another 12 reports..
seriously, i wasnt able to concentrate at all..

my 2 angels, zihui and caiji, went ahead to do turning..
everyone was feeling guilty, sad, so terrible..

caiji f/u to call pt's sis, pt's sis said that she didnt want to inform us if the pt has reached home, cos she didnt want police to be involved in.
my heart sank down..
how? wad to do? where can he go to? is he alert enough to give his adress to the taxi driver?

later part, caiji called again, tis time round, pt's sis said tt pt has reached home.. will try to persuade him to come back to the hospital..
thank GOD.. heng ar..
HE still look after me..

at 5 plus, pt came back to the ward.
walked in steadily, alert..
he carried a plastic bag, one hand holding milk, the other hand holding bread
oh God, he is hungry..
he claimed that he was hungry, he went down to buy food, realised that he got no money, so took taxi home to take money..

oh dear,...

Suva walked into the ward, took his case sheet and read.
then questioned Devi.
Now, Devi claimed that she didnt see the pt changed at all..

anyway, the pt returned back to the hosptal safely.

i feel vy bad for causing zihui to feel bad and guilty.. blaming herself not taking a good care of the pt. sorry zihui........

i learnt a vy impt lesson thru tis incident..
thank God in aiding me with this incident.
thanks to caiji, zihui, maiyah and tessa for helping thru out the whole ND. without u guys, i wont be able to finish my work on time..
thanks for all the effort tt u guys put in..

now, the pt has absconded again..

2009-05-10T23:20:00.000-07:00

We lost Ramad and Jumaiah in 3 days time..
it was so sudden and unexpected...
everyone is shocked and surprised..

few minutes ago, i was still talking to him. yesterday, i was still nursing her, chat with her..

she happened to pass away on mother's day
very sad..

seeing how his wife whispered to his ears, calling him..
soften me a lot..

I dunno if we have neglected his needs as everyone thinks tt he is demented or has minor impairment..
sorry...

last sunday n i/c job was terrible..
i tink its me n my rabbit luck.
others could be just sitting down, shake legs on sun
anyways, i will grow to be a better one
not ignoring my other colleagues who are busy..
jia you for all the n i/c to be.. (han,jas,wenxin,maiyah and zhengying)
we all can make it..

2009-05-04T00:16:00.000-07:00

i tink i found my lucky star...

HAN E POOH

i tink we are the best night duty working partner.
it break my "sway" luck.
it has been almost 2 years, this is my 1st time having ND with her..

hahaha.......

anyway we are the 2 lucky ones tt had 2 night shifts.
cos after us, everyone starts with 3 night duty..
it all started bcos of SWINE..
we sacrifice a lot.
we have to give up on 5/6days work, 2ND
and lot more...........

just hope tt all tis will come to an end soon..

2009-04-26T19:13:00.000-07:00

TTSH heroes and villains of 2009 DnD
I like this..
First time dress up in costume to go for DnD.

Me: Xena
Jasmine : incredible
Han: alexandra the great (honestly i dun really know who is he :p)
Maiyah (some green yellow character, hahaha) but u looked gareat
alisa: lolita

having hard time persuading gu ma (esp.), zihui and peggy
when she saw us wearing the costumes, she kept on mumbling that she also wants to wear.
Didnt I ask her x1000times, pls wear??????
anyway, how i wish fiona, zhengying and wenxin can join us.
had great fun.
jasmine was so famous, quite a no. of ppl stopped and asked "can i take pic with u?"
jasmine found her incredible sister
i also found my warrior bro and sis

anyway next yr all tt i mention must be there: jas, han, maiyah, alisa, fiona,zihui,chengxia, wenxin,zhengying,peggy and me..
dunno how to squeeze into 1 table.. hahaha

sis Tan, was my hero
she is a NO that i wan to have n dun wan to lose.
she protected each of her staffs
she is the 1st NO who really take action in things tt are not right...
she was just telling tt our ward has 0 phlebitis, suprisingly, then here comes 1.
yest, i received callfrom 8c at 9pm that the pt tt i transferred over at 4.30pm , his iv plg got redness

i went down with sis to have a look
its quite bad, but i would have notice it if it was like tt
cos i transfer the dopamine drip to the above plug on the same had
i didnt notice any obvious redness
sis said nvm, we raised
then i ammended my report
the staff there then pointed out tt another plug also got redness
then sis Tan, got angry

asked him wad time is it now?
tt staff: 9pm
sis Tan: wad time did we transfer to u?
tt staff: 4.30pm
sis Tan: there n then u shld inform us at tt point where we transfer over to ur side, not until 4hrs later

shin n sis Tan walked out from 8c
sis tan said "wah, wan me to raise another 1, i am not goin to raise even the 1st one"
hahaha, she super cute
she went down to 8c again to take the report paper asked me to ammend again
we noticed tt the staff wrote the report at 9pm and write nil phlebitis.
when i transfer 3 of their staff come n take over
why didnt they tell me?
if i went down with other "green" for sure i have to raise 2.

anyway i just love her alot
another 1 was the lab tech scolded me over the phone. a
she called and asked the lab supervisor to take action n let her know abt e outcome,if nt she will go to e higher authority.
yest, she show me the letter tt she typed to the supervisor..
having her around, really makes u feel treasured.

thanks sis Tan........

2009-04-17T04:10:00.000-07:00

pls, noone is perfect, we are all human
dun do this...............
stop it, spare some thought for others.
u dun know how many thousand times we have to be distracted
how many thousand things we need to check on

u shld understand us more than anyone else
cos u r so close to us, u know how much workload we have
please try to understand

we are nt hiding our mistakes and nt pushing it away, bt before anyone pin point on anyone's mistake, we shld at least find out wad went wrong.
pls dun say stupid, cos noone is stupid. there is only lazy ppl.
i dun tink anyone can work without nurses. we work as a team to provide the best quality care.
the whole thing, just hurt me..

please.....

as a supervisor, pls be vy mindful on wad u said.

2009-04-10T08:49:00.000-07:00

started e-imr on 6/4/09

this allien thing has good and bad point.
currently, has more bad points than gd points

bad because: not familiar, troublesome, u carry cow along instead of imr for identifier, once u clicked it, tts it. diff ppl entering diff way,unable to enter when someone log on tt pt, still has problem of not informed stat order and many many more.

good because: u dont have to search for imr, fun to play with, i tink tts all

haiz, next time maybe we will have eletronic nurse..

raised e-hor..
its not my error..
i only discovered it, i did nothing wrong..
she (K) is the one who need to raise lor.. she is the one who give instruction to withold..
anyway dots...

2009-03-27T01:23:00.000-07:00

our view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-03-13T05:46:00.000-07:00

Saw uncle Lou's maid few days ago, she dropped by to the ward..
has heard abt the news that uncle lou has passed away 1 wk ago.
when i saw her, i hit her gently..
inside my heart, i feel so sad..
i feel like crying...

uncle Lou,
he is someone who is so dear to me, n assh..
he is someone tt we will want to pamper, sweet talk, joke with even when the rest dont even bother to do so.
he is so close to me.
he can remember my name even when he is in confusion.
till today, his pic is still inside my locker..
the last admission, when he is abt to d/c, i asked him to take pic with me.
he waited for me >1/2 hr.
i was still busy doin my thing, so i told him we can take it next time..
who knows...
i regretted so much..

i am glad that he passed away in his sleep. n not in the ward.
if i have to resuscitate him in the ward and found that he cant make it, i will break down..

Dear uncle Lou,
i dote u a lot.. i miss u..
please have a good rest there.
we will visit u..

2009-03-04T06:13:00.000-08:00

2/3/2009
sister Tan officially transferred to ward 9b, Mr Cheow took over ward 9d

called back to do N I/C at 0515hrs. noone else is available. actually tot of rejecting, cos its after my sleeping day.. but the power of friendship, sometimes can give u encouragement too.

the last time when i did it was during chris, peace day..
N I/C on mon morning..
when i woke up, i kept thinking abt the long list of discharges tts due on mon..
mon.. mon.. always so many things to f/u.
trendcare, staffing
stress stress

however it was not as bad as i thought it would be.
everything went on quite smoothly.
i learnt how to return expired cd drugs..
u can only go IP at 4-5 pm, bring along the cd drugs, the cd book, plus goods returned form.
u need to make 1 big turn at b2, to get to IP.
so try not to send ur ama ldown to collect any meds unless its really urgent.
cos its quite stuffy too..
CEO talk (1 hr) according to wad i heard its only conducted twice a yr..
if u attended the talk dunno heng or wad lo...

3/3/09

day 2 as NI/C pm shift..
take over shift..
got 4 transfer in list, 3 discharges, 4 admissions.
i dunno if others get the same thing as wad i got when they do NI/C
it was really2 busy..
and worse if u get a pn who throw all the admission to u as if u are the pn i/c
i could only say tt its a very good experience.
i rather get all the shit beginning of all tis then do i/c for 2 yrs and know nothing

lesson to learnt:
if relative told u tt they got enough meds, dun wan to collect meds from EP, at least told them to go to EP clarify the current meds whether got any changes in new meds.
at least u ll be in peace tt they wont eat wrong dose of meds, or even eat the meds which has alre been stopped durin tis admission.
and double check IDS against IMR order for TCU, cos DR do make last changes at last minute..

hua ren you xi wang le..

i learnt to see the importance of each calls. u have a duty to settle each call tt u picked up.
as a i/c u r vy impt in realying msg to each pn to get things done.
rahimah is my angel. she do OT bcos of me..
thks..

4/3/09

today work is damn messy.
everything just not in place, somemore got ubqic which lasted for 2 hrs..
anyway jiayou everyone

2009-02-23T00:10:00.000-08:00

finished my ND liao..
I can say that this round is the heavist ND i ever had.
9 DIL out of 16 pt.
5 of them are for active mgt.
4 of them for wd mgt.
3 on CLC monitoring..
2 very ill pt that u have to spend most of ur time on them.
2 trachy pt, needing regular suctioning.. n
1 of my pt pressing call bell like everyone is there just for her presence..
damn busy, till u got no time to eat, end up having gastric pain.

these 2 wks, really makes me n other colleagues feel tired of goin to work..
am shift off work at 4+ close to 5, Pm shift ends at 11+ to 12. ND finished at 9+
it's chaotic..

scared to do ND, the workload is undescribeable
1 collapsed is enough to turn u upside down

rabbit cursed is in the air.
even the ox- me also got it.

saw 1 pt eating pau yest, haha.. n we reminded each other to pay close attention to each pt, just in case got pau curse..
i think hospital should put a notice, "pau is not allowed in the hospital "

some even take mc just to take a rest, didnt consider those colleagues who is on duty, work extra hard, cos she/he take mc...

n i cant believe it that next door only 14 pt. staff is surfing net. when u went to borrow things from them, they asked u to take urself..

hm...

even when sleeping, my dream is all abt high BP, pt collapsing.. resus..
hope this will end soon..

2009-02-18T03:24:00.000-08:00

pt A referred for chest PT today..
seen by chest PT at 3pm.
approached by chest PT.
PT: "I have discharged the pt from Chest PT"
shin: " How come? "
PT: " cos the nurses have done a great job, suctioned the pt very well. so i dont have to do it.
and i have informed the Dr."
" the Dr also commented that the nurses are very good"
shin: (happy ++ eventhough busy)

its a kind of compliment and satisfaction in job....

2009-02-18T03:09:00.000-08:00

I have finally accepted the fact that i have the pau curse without eating pau..
esp when its a rabbit year.. with rabbit partner Fiona Ke..

1st DIL DNR case, on my hand.
too fast...

be happy and accept the fact..

17/2/09

2009-02-13T06:43:00.000-08:00

Nurse is the toughest job i can say

If one day, i will have passed away,

will anyone remember me as a good nurse?

will anyone value me as a nurse?

Today, " i dun want to be a nurse in my next life"

2009-01-31T03:01:00.000-08:00

Cow's year celebration 26/1/09

Daddy n mummy, seeing them happy = shinta's happiness

eventhough it was only a simple picture, i felt the warmth...

I love this, looking at how my sis circled her hands on them..

the fans of our superstar!!!!!

9b nurses

wishing everyone a better luck, better working environment, better team work, less shit..

2009-01-12T08:39:00.000-08:00

year 2009

1st strike 09/01/09

han came to the ward, telling me tt she had just wrote on her blog abt me.
joined the group " I will never eat a PAU or let my team mate eat a PAU while on shift / duty"
she wrote tt i dun need to eat pau in order to get "tt luck"

guess wad, i told her tt i had just resuscitated 1 pt to ICU
not on DIL list, intubated.

i guess its just "tt luck" is on with me all the time n i am starting to accept that fact.

had our 1st new yr outing
me, maiyah, alisa, han, jas, fiona, chengxia
went to siam kitchen, then go bugis street to change chengxia's dressing code

12/01/09

Rita's "o" level result is finally out
L1R5 of 14, congrats gal..

2008-12-31T00:08:00.000-08:00

last post for the year 2008,

Facts:

I love my family very much (Daddy, mummy, da jie, xiao di, xiao mei (Rita) , not forgetting the great popo)

I treasure each and everyone of u, not wanting to lose anyone.

Thanks for treasuring, cherishing me as a granddaughter, daughter, sister and friend.

Too much things has happened.

the one tt has the most impact on me is my friendship with han.

I treasure this friendship very much, cos as a friend she actually go beyond what a normal friend wont do (tts wad i feel n admire abt)

she made me cherish friendship more.

just hope that from what had happened in the past, makes our friendship even stronger.

I love u maiyah, thanks for the precious time that u have given me when i needed most.

thanks for the love.

alisa, i love u too.

I am happy that assh has been created.

i want to be able to eat dinner again with u guys during cny with the same spirit like last yr.

i could still remember the wish : hope that assh will last forever.

not wanting to lose any of u. i feel at times, we just need to reassure each other.

that sentence of assurance means a lot.

starting from tmr, i want to be a better nurse, better granddaughter, better daughter, better sister and a better friend!!

being the N I/C experience on 25/12/08

2008-12-26T04:32:00.000-08:00

hohohoho...

It was a very excited, scary, great experience i could say..

excited: cos its my 1st time

scary: cos no senior around, if got collapse? die!!

great: cos u have to handle everything

early morning : counted cd drugs, do trend care (annoyed by e fact tt trendcare has to be + hr, she allocate her hours among the 3 team when she didnt help.)

got call from lab:

shin: good morning, ward 9b

Lab staff: morning, calling from lab, re: Shmg urine result

shin: hold on please.. staff, we dont have this pt on our list. i think she is supposed to be transfer to our ward, but was cancelled.

lab staff: no no!! staff, this specimen was despatched from ur side 9b/49

shin: ok, just to let u know that we dont have tis pt here in our ward. but if u want me to take down the result, i will take it.

lab staff : no no, its not that i want a.. the specimen was sent from ur side, u have to take down the result

shin: (annoyed) ok fine!!!

lab staff: result.........

called ward 5, to inform re result (.....)

given iv till 9 am, trying to follow rounds, at the same time try to lighten workload from each staff.

10 o'clock Jas gone for break, i asked her to ask fiona along.

at 10.30 Sis.K, why no junior go for break?

???? huh? no junior gone for break. ( i tot i only need to remind sn to go for break, forgotten abt juniors)

some ppl grumbling that no one helping them

its super difficult to be multi task as a N I/C

the workload tt u r suppose to cover is alot.

staffs will just refer to u for any reference, N I/C has to be the resourcer

however, i still managed to enjoy myself eventhough on and off scolding( mumbling) around.

1 admission, 1 transfer in.

I just have tt power to attract ppl in..

i managed to survived :)

2008-12-21T21:57:00.000-08:00

9b rock!!

2008-12-21T21:48:00.000-08:00

Small little things that mean a lot

ASSH

my 2008 bdae present

2008-12-04T07:14:00.000-08:00

2008-12-04T06:34:00.000-08:00

hoho...
27 days more to year 2009..
hm... recalling what has happened over the past 11 mths 4days..
so much things had happened.

I am now a better trained nurse, equipped with better resus skills and knowledge.
more appreciative towards things.
understand my patient not only to their physical, diagnosis, but also psychosocially.
most of my renal pt, facing problems like financial difficulty. those who has no financial problem, they either dun have good family support or smth else.
when u fall sick, esp chronic illness, what u need most is family support. if u got no money, still can seek financial help from some foundations. but if u got no family support, thats it. cos, u wont be able to find another family. u'll be demoralised and have slower speed of recovery compared to e others..

I just dun understand how come there is still children abandoned their parents in the hospital, refused to brig them back. in the past, how their parents actually suffered and bring them up to an adult. how can u???

spend more times with ur love one. u wont know what will happen tmr, 1 wk later, 1 mth later or even 1 yr later. u may just lose anyone at anytime.
do tell them how much u love them, dun wait..

for the coming 2009, my wishlist are
1. hope that dad n mum can move to sgp asap or at least batam.
2. hope that everyone in the family is happy and no longer worries abt $.
3. hope sis n bro in law happy always, n winston becoming smarter, cuter, good boy n knows how to call er yi..
4. hope that brother knows how to manage his money well
5. hope Rita excell in her studies, n slimmer
6. hope that me, get promoted to SN1,makes less mistake, become a better granddaughter, daughter, sister, auntie, assh mate..
7. hope that i have enough cash to buy my own flat..
8. hope granny happier, legs get better.
9. hope alisa becomes prettier, more gentle in walking, less emotional.. :)
10. hope han becomes a better nurse, happy in whatever things she do, less e-Hor :)
11. hope maiyah becomes more bubbly, prettier, n lovely :)
12. hope that assh will still be there, till e rest of my life.
13. hope that jas n durian boy planning to get married soon.
14. hope peggy n samuel happy ever after n make baby soon.
14. hope all students pass their posting.
15. hope that my ward NOs have better plan for their staffs n nag less..
16. hope there will be lesser conflict in the ward.
17. hope all e nice dr get better calls.

so much more to wish..
hope everybody is happy......

2008-10-26T03:22:00.000-07:00

my siblings

the most relax post i got

my studious meme
someone that always makes me worry ++, seeks for perfectionist most of the time. cries whenever she lost a competition. often hu shi luan xiang, and shares a bed with me..
always get scolding whenever i found clothes messed up by her.
get anxious easily esp during her 1st o level paper..
excellent leadership. strike for her study..
topped the class, well liked by mates
doted most by the family. my act cute partner *haha*
take care of her friends and juniors lots..

lovely sis
the eldest among all.. has to carry the heavist responsibility to take care of us..
independent sister, i could say..
someone to share my sorrow and happiness* although didnt update u most of e time*
has lots to headache about..
a sister, a daughter, a wife, and a mum
gets agitated and angry quite ofter.. (must change wor..)
thumbs up for her..

my *bochap* brother

always like to say "just ignore what they said"
someone tt i am quite worried abt. but luckily he is 21 alre, knows how to take care of himself.
always came back late (last time la)
he dotes my mum n xiao mei lots.
the only guy among us..
has to act brave, bo chap, but deep down he cares lots of wads happening..
famous among girls..

to my dear siblings (big sis, bro and xiaomei)
i love all of u lots , u all meant everything to me.. i guarantee nothing gonna change our kinship at all. i treasure u guys lots. we will all stand together to face all things. we had walked out from the most difficult way. wadever situation tt we are facing now, it's only a test and i am sure after the rain it will be a sunny day with rainbow..

2008-09-28T19:28:00.000-07:00

me n my darling

maiyah, me n jas

pose!!

xia xia and li wen wedding 27/09/2008

2008-09-22T04:33:00.000-07:00

my trip to village was indeed a good one.. gain weight (haha), attended my bestie wedding.

last year only heard from her that she has a boyfriend (2yrs). tis year ( i am getting married)

almost couldnt attend her wedding. but fortunately, god is kind enough to get my leave granted..

the wedding celebration is very diff from here. the 1st and the last dish must be dessert. 1 table consist of 8 chairs. they got karaoke session. who ever that went up to the stage no matter whether u sang wonderful or terrible, u will still end up getting lots of red packet from the ground.

my 1st trip to travel alone from sgp to batam --> balai--> tj. samak--> selat panjang and go back the otherway round..

proud of myself ..

2008-08-26T05:28:00.000-07:00

had 1 bld transfussion reaction occured when i take over shift.
patient is having chills and rigors badly, w/o fever, stable vital sign and h/c.
the 1st order is to slower the transfussion.
within 1/2 hr BP shot up to 200/85, HR up to 120 beats/min. and SPO2 86% on RA
the 2nd order is to stop blood immediately.
CONFIRMED REACTION

next, the DR have to take 2 red tube anD 1 EDTA tube (plus 5mls of urine if not ESRF n still able to pass urine)
filled up the blood reaction form, (make sure every part is filled, if not BTS will bounch back to u)
called BTS to inform them abt it.
IV hydrocortisone 100 mg, tab paracet 1g and piriton 4 mg stat

i always thought that bld reaction only occured during 1st hour of transfussion. but this happened 1 1/2 hr after transfussion. the chills and rigors is real bad kind.
after 2 hrs post transfussion, pt developed fever..

today, got a shocked when i have to went over 9a for acti9ve resus for zal..
noone expected this all will just happen today right in front of me.
she was still arrousable and able to drink PEG, 5 mins b4 we sent her for dialysis.
15 mins later received a call from 9a tt pt very ill, to fetch back.
at tt point of time, i thought she maybe sleeping too deeply.
when i reached 9a, CPR started.
Dr. Tan did intubation himself.
in the end we cant revive her.
the person who shocked most is Dr. Lee YY
he saw the pt 15 mins before she went for HD.
he was in wd 86 when he received a call abt her, he flew here with an unopen culture bottle to main block..
ir really didnt strike me at all tt this will happened.
after the whole event, i saw her son, he didnt seem to understand what has happened (her mum is gone forever)

life is unpredictable, tell them tt u love them......

2008-08-01T19:54:00.000-07:00

HAPPY NURSES DAY !!!

" TTSH nurses do great jobs. they shoulder heavy responsibilities, deal firsthand with patient demands and frustrations, as well as provide excellent care on top of this. Nurses are the ones who do this tirelesslyday after day. we applaud their passion"

Albert Tan, COO

"Our nurses touch many lives in the course of their work. their compassion, understanding and willingness to serve others deserve our recognition and thanks.

Happy nurses day!

Lim Suet Wun

CEO, TTSH & NHG

"Nursing today is more complex than ever and our nurses face new challenges beyond patient care. They now manage patients and support our doctors in attending to patients. Their role is critical. Together, they have added strength to the TTSH team spirit.

Prof Philip Choo, CMB

U all have done a great jobs!!!!

2008-07-08T04:06:00.000-07:00

Hi... I am back.
i didnt have any june post.. no time to update blog :)
Just finished my night duty.
1st ND- 2 bld transfussion, sent down 1 DIL active pt for CT brain
2nd ND - sent down 1 DIL active case down for urgent MRI brain, ended up doin resus there
3rd ND - 3 bld transfussion , 1 admission

I am considered 1 of the "good" luck sn in the ward. get shit most of the time. but from every piece of it, i gained more experience.

Benjamin was on call. sent Mr Tan down for urgent MRI brain as he was deteriorating (getting slurred speech, decreased power movements, drooling out saliva, sweating ++)
he was for active mgt. we brought AED, ETT and 1st line drugs along.
Fiona sent the case down with me, plus Ben.
GCS was 14 , vital sign was stable when we sent down.
before he went into the MRI room, i told him it would ony be awhile, asked him whether he has any chest pain (cos trop I was 6.9) He nodded hi head to acknowledge tt he understood me and claimed no chest pain.

he was on cardiac monitoring throughout. but half way during the scan, the pulse went up and down (lowest 20+ highest 110+) I was not in any peace at all.
I was asking Ben whether pt will have MI goin on without he/she realising it. He said its possible. but for his case, he is recovering from MI (cos trop I did decreased)
suddenly cardiac monitor showed asystole, I jumped, alerted the staff of the reading.
she went in to check, he was still alright.
at least relieved for that minute.
discussing our night before (me n fiona), last time when she was still a student, we had 2 active resus (1 to ICU and 1 coroner)

again the cardiac monitor showed pulse went dow to 20+ then asystole.
the staff went in to check again, from outside I saw the staff shaking the pt. didnt look good.
they pushed out the pt immediately, pt was in pale looking, foam came out from the mouth.
I was really panicked, trying to search for things to start resuscitation.
connected pt to AED, but it was asystole.
for now i really believed that u have to stay cool and calm throughout the whole resus.

"prepare adrenaline", ???? adrenaline, oh, must do drug dilution.
my hand was shaking. 1st time after my 1 yr as a SN doin drug dilution.
thought of calling loderly to come down.
cos I was not familiar with the other drug. but upthere we got at least 4 DIL active pt.
I was hoping that they didnt asked for any drug other than adrenaline and atropine
"atropine 2.4" i draw out 0.6 and handed to the DR. he asked me "how much is this"
I told him "0.6" He then told me to draw full 2.4 together.
CPR started, adrenaline given x9 ampoules (9mls), adrenaline 2.4
they dint transfer the pt to our own bed. so we got very limited space to do CPR
the MO had to climb up the stairs to do CPR.
"prepare ETT" #?#?!?
attempted 2x intubation but failed cos secreation ++++
concluded resus 30 mins later, cos pt heart dint manage to beat back.

the pt turned out to be coroner's case (unknown cause of death, cos MRI shows normal)
photocopied his case notes 4 cm thicked (1 n 1/2 months of stay)
till 6 plus am.
his wife was totally not aware tt his husband alre passed away when she went in to the cubicle to see him. until the dr told her so.

learnt from my lesson tt

1. i have to stay calm throughout resus eventhough u only have 2 sn around.
2. to know all dilution and method of delivering for 1st line drugs
3. must keep recalling how to fixed AED once in awhile. cos during resus, we cant afford to have any delay.
4. bring more saline, cos have to dilute and flushed every drugs interval.
5. have to familiarise myself with e-trolley
6. coroner's case procedure- photocpoy all document, DR to prepare d/c summary, fill up yellow cardx3, notification of police form, tell family tt they cant claimed the body yet, the police will give them a call when to collect. to bring i/c during collection time.
to submit original document to police post b4 6 am so that family can claimed the body on the day itself. police will then call u for the case.

Sis K was not happy that the meds trolley is not up to her standard.
inside pt's each meds drawer, u are not supposed to put any ward stock meds inside (like panadol, ferrous fumarate, cloxacillin, frusemide, maxalon, senna)
i have been putting all tt for 1 yr. only yest, i discovered that we are nt supposed to put tt in.
she was very angry cos am tidy up for 4 hrs, pm she herself tidy up for 1 n 1/2 hr still cant make it perfect. she really upset everyone.
noone is perfect. i still found some things tt are not supposed to be inside even after she tidy up

Jas told me tt i shld post more good things on my blog. lol..

miss assh to the max.

2008-05-28T03:39:00.000-07:00

Recalling what had happened before my night duty...
had 2 deaths within 3 days of my shift.

1- desat my time, gasping till asystole end of my shift. breathe out the last breath and drooled out greenish fluid from his mouth. he is single. however, had a nice relatives. the niece cried very badly. kind of like envy the kind of relationship that they had.

2- throw fits and stared to the ceiling blankly in front of my eyes. did full active resuscitation all the way. shocked him 6x, adrenaline x8, atropine x4, gelofundin, sodium bicarbonate.
in the end, have to give up his life cos he is not responded to the treatment.
I am very sad at tt point of time.

i tot i have done my best to him, but i am wrong. his daughter very angry and scolded us cos she cant see him for the last time. felt terrible.
we did our best , contacted relatives.
instead of gratitude, what we get was scolding.
I noe that she felt terrible cos she cant see her dad.

anyway, finally he responded to my email after LONG period of time. he is in hawaii now.
happy to the max . KIV going for renal course.

2008-05-18T04:55:00.000-07:00

missing assh lots, meet up soon

2008-05-18T04:52:00.000-07:00

" ich liebe dich " means i love you

2008-05-09T02:56:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since i last updated my blog.
It ended with mr kanghoe making my blood vessels burst.
I dunno whether tis space purposefully reserved for him or wad.
However, it will continue from him again

Mr tham passed away after my day off. sad though, but at least he didnot have to suffer anymore.

Mr kanghoe, I dunno wad really happened to him.
Yest, called up ward few times, noone picked up.
At last, when maiyah picked up, she broke the news to me, i almost couldnt believe what i heard.
Mr chua passed away.
The man who always been asking for water, ice, coffee, biscuits, soup, oil , cream to apply,no longer there breathing.
he can no longer asked for any request.
no matter what he had done, i dun tink he deserved to go in such away.wish u all the best and be good when u meet ur "jesus" there..

Visited Jas's blog and had a word with her last night..
disappointment from her, really can be heard through the phone.

I guess maybe i put in quite a big part of my heart to my patient.
cos most of the time their death seems to have some impact on me.
reminded me to cherish all the people surrounding me.
even if they are once so bad before.

the people in the ward thinks that we are playing with MC
especially on that day, me, maiyah, wx on mc. happened that jas on DO and han on AL.
they may be thinking that we are enjoying ourselves.
I took mc on my day off. most of them said that i am stupid, go n take mc on day off.
I am really in a very bad condition that i have to take mc on my day off.
I am not tt kind that will take mc because i am tired of workload in the ward.
i have the feel for my pt and my other colleagues that work extra hard when others take mc!!

I actually expected that kind of response.
i am down with urticaria, dunno arising from what kind of thing that i am allergic to.
still cant find what is the cause.
puffy face, red patches all over the body plus the itchiness drives me NUTs!

visited ward and ttsh clinic today.
partly wants them to know how badly i am , not to gossip behind me.
mc extended till 11/5 (total of 5 days)
treated with prednisolone 10 mg bd, atarax 25 mg tds
but it doesnt seem to work..
kiv blood test if still not getting better till next week.

Dad and Mum are coming soon..
love :-)

2008-04-20T12:29:00.000-07:00

2nd turning to 3rd round of night duty............
blood vessels gonna burst soon due to kang hoe

1st night, came happily, to discover that 1 pt, gonna of dopamine on my shift.
feeling sad, cos i have nursed him for some periods.
there is a bonding there.
shock to find pt sleeping on the floor (naked!!)
more shock to know tt the next thing, he claimed that he fell down from the bed and landed on the face. 3 ppl (me, jas and kala) trying to pull him up, but cant grab anywhere cos again he is naked!! angry plus funny, we carried him up to the bed like carrying a pig....
he talked as if nothing has happened to him.
asking for coffee, water, ice cubes, ice water and the cycle just went on and on.......

towards morning all pt started to Bowel open together at same timing..
!?!?!?! wad is this!?!?!
at this point of time, nothing has yet made any decision to leave nursing
had a breakfast with han, jas and peggy (lovely..)

2nd night

when taking over, they passed tt 1 pt actually smoked inside cubicle. Luckily the one with 100% o2 has went down to HD, otherwise, we will be doin firedrill tonight.
anyone of us may just become like fiona and friends
Talking to kang hoe, made me angry plus funny
dunno whether to laugh or angry.
one minute u found him on bed, another minute he laid on the floor...
if only i can squeeze him into my pocket, i will do it.
he became a drama show for my another pt.
Mr. T still surviving, struggling real hard to sustain his life..
I salute him.....

all the best for my 3rd night

2008-04-11T09:39:00.000-07:00

"Sad that I can no longer feel the same as before
however, still love u as much as before."

2008-04-06T07:55:00.000-07:00

These few days has been working extra hard cos short of staffing.
so many mcs...

If u are really sick, i wont mind
but the fact that u take mc when u are not sick, its infuriating
inconsiderate to those who are on shift

we hardly have N I/C for these few days, the worse is running with 3 teams
the worst ts when u have a junior who is inconsiderate and gossiping behind u that u dint help them.
we can help them , but they cant help us.
most of the time they can go back after 2.30 , 9.30 or 7.30
the small M still can talk behind our back.
If only she can wake up?!?!?! haiz...

heard the news tt Mdm.Teo passed away
I am so sad, felt bad too
She c/o SOB during my shift, I did wad i can do, including getting the on call to come and see her.
She collapsed towards morning and eventually passed away.
she was not even on DIL
therefore become corroner's case
I was still talking to her yest, today she is no longer there

I told Rita, do come and visit me when one day i am uncommunicative, lying on the hospital.
eventhough i may not talk, but i will be able to sense ur presence there

I even asked her, dunno who will feel sad when i passed away
who will walk out from my friend list? who will cry badly?
seeing so many things happened around me made me thought of so many things..
silly thought ....

seeing the pic, two bff holding hands walking, supporting each other
behind the friendship of 40yrs...
its really amazing one.

2008-03-28T10:06:00.000-07:00

The things that we went through eventually made our friendship got stronger. The stone that has been thrown did made a loud sound on a pure glass. However, the glass didnt break.

Sorry for not understanding ur feeling
Sorry for not trusting u that tis wont even affect our friendship
sorry for not putting myself on ur shoes
sorry for being angry to u

hope u do understand why do i have all that on my mind

cos u are someone i really appreciate and cherish
cos i put lots of love n hope in this friendship
cos i cant afford to be betrayed by someone closed

sensing that thing's not going right, but dare not tell u or even question u. scared that i may hurt u by asking all that.
silence maybe a solution but not at times.
hope that there wont be a chance to have a communication breakdown between us.

do bring me back when i start to stray away cos most of the time i dun want that to happen.
u may have lots of ppl who loves u alot surrounding u
but me, i only have those fews
so i get disappointed easily at times.
do reassure me, cos i do need it at times

though i maybe boring, naggy, short tempered, stubborn most of the time

treasure this alot

2008-03-23T22:34:00.000-07:00

was too emo yest. will try not to let it happen anymore.
enjoying very much for the 1st hour of outing.
sorry, to have spoilt everybody's mood.

sometimes u just have to accept some facts.
i learnt something yest.
learnt to let things go by its own way
be lucky that u are the one that the person cherish most.

2008-03-17T03:39:00.000-07:00

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself and doesn't feel even the least bit weird shutting your 'beer/Pepsi drawer' with her foot!

A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend shoulder is soggy from your tears..

A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.

A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.

A simple friend hates it when you call after they've gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.

A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it!

A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend calls you after you had a fight.

A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!

2008-03-15T19:20:00.000-07:00

Finished my 3 days of ND...
have a smooth one

very happy, I got an email from him.
cant wait to see the pic.

I am trying to refrain myself from letting my emotion overrule me
sometimes managed to bluff my way through
other times, i just cant.. My facial expression betrayed me just like that.

miss my assh-es so much. must meet up guys, badly!!

cant wait to see each of us dresses in each others' style.

2008-03-15T19:07:00.000-07:00

Teacher: History is a very interesting subject. It tells you about what had happened in the past. Student: Please teacher, I don't think I want to study history.
Teacher: Why?
Student: There is no future in it.

Teacher: Ted, if your father has $10 and you ask him for $6, how much would your father still have?
Ted: $10.
Teacher: You don't know maths.
Ted: You don't know my father!

Mother: David, come here.
David: Yes, mum?
Mother: You really disappoint me. Your results are getting worse.
David: But I will only get my report book tomorrow.
Mother: I know that. But I am going to Hong Kong tomorrow, so I am scolding you now.

Father: Why did you fail your mathematics test?
Son: On Monday, teacher said 3+5=8
Father: So?
Son: On Tuesday, she said 4+4=8 And on Wednesday, she said 6+2=8. If she can't make up her mind, how do I know the right answer?

A mother and son were doing dishes while the father and daughter were watching TV in the living room. Suddenly, there was a loud crash of breaking plates,then complete silence.
The daughter turned to look at her father.
Daughter: It's mummy!
Father: How do you know?
Daughter: She didn't say anything.

Girl: Do you love me?
Boy: Yes Dear
Girl: Would you die for me?
Boy: No, mine is undying love

Man: How old is your father?
Boy: As old as me
Man: How can that be?
Boy: He became a father only when I was born

Teacher: Simon, your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as yourbrother's. Did u copy his?
Simon: No, teacher, it's the same dog!

Father: Your teacher says she finds it impossible to teach you anything!
Son: That's why I say she's no good!

A teacher was asking her class: 'What is the difference between 'unlawful' and 'illegal'?' Only one hand shot up.
'Ok, answer, Joan' said the teacher.
''unlawful' is when u do something the law doesn't allow and 'illegal' is a sick eagle.'

Teacher: 'How come you do not comb your hair?'
Ah Kow: 'No comb, Sir.'
Teacher: 'Use your dad's then.'
Ah Kow: 'No hair, Sir'

A boy came home from school with his exam results.
'What did u get?' asked his father.
'My marks are under water,' said the boy.
'What do u mean 'under water'?'
'They are all below 'C' (sea) level'

2008-03-08T07:26:00.000-08:00

Dunno whether i am changing or .............
I felt uncomfortable with her being so close to me.
I am being unfair to her.
She tolerated my temper, while i am showing face to her.
Will evaluate myself.
I am no longer the 1, I used to be.

Hope i can control myself better.

I am no longer the good one as wad i used to be.
I actually judging my pt, how can I do that?
I felt sorry for that.
I ll change for tt, I wont judge any of my pt (goals to achieve starting from tmr)

ppl around me, got to help me.

went kbox with my souls.. nice 1 definitely.
still feeling sad, not get use to the fact that he has left.

sian,
shin

2008-03-05T23:38:00.000-08:00

he is leaving soon, which is tmr.
gonna miss him for the smile, wave, the back and his voice.
dunno how far have i gone,
hope that when he comes back, he will look for us.

dun stay too long there and get a nepalist woman back.
it will break my heart.. haha..

to my close fren,
even sometimes when i feel tired, or feel like giving u up, I will tink twice for the quote tt u tell me " dun ever give up on me"
for tt, i assure u tt i will try my vy best to stay with u.

sorry for making u guys listen to my silly comment abt him.

2008-03-01T06:55:00.000-08:00

I cried for once in my almost 8 mths of joining ttsh.

scolded by pt's relative badly.
I cried because i felt unfair.
its my 1st day taking charge of that team, the most heavy team.
I was rushed to do things faster by my junior. " can u give her meds 1st or not?"
who doesnt want to be fast and efficient in work.
with the hundred and one things on ur mind, while serving meds and being pester by ur junior to rush u off just bcos she need to send pt over to 9A and the fact tt u got to answer the phone call for more things, its really driving me crazy.
I was really upset, she said "tts not ur love one tts why u are sitting on it. u dun feel the urgency.
I want to complain."
tt's theirs favourite words.
how can she said smth like that? its hurting.
I noe she cares for her mum, but who says i dun care and sitting on it?
I've checked with the rest tt they alre informed the ST, when i take over for tt morning, I alre told N i/c to list it as urgent.

feeling really upset, got no mood to eat.
but i saw him in the lift.
he cheered me up by just tt few sentences .
I felt i am crazy.
he's leaving soon.
so, just be crazy for few more days and shall end it.

tt day, i finished my work at 6
in the middle of some pending stuff on hold, i was forced to attend some talk.
I felt stupid.
anyway u just have to learn how to cope.

I am whefra certified to do the 2nd assesment. :-)

2008-02-22T09:42:00.000-08:00

it was really2 a surprise for me....

was very nervous when i heard from maiyah, then from han..

I am flying off..

had dinner at garuda (orchard) 22/02/2008

wonderful one definitely.

the whole 2hrs, i was quiet and observing them.

it was just like dreaming..

the conversation just continue from one topic to another.

hoping that the time could just stop there,

eventhough i am not the 1 talking..

still admiring and continue to do so.

its just so memorable to me. That full 2 hrs.

he is going off soon.

hope dun have to wait for 10yrs.

hahaha... engine goes rusak liao..

came back, quite dissapointed. but after the conference call,

han: dun worry, there will be a (.....)

alisa: i 'll listen to u de. i will not stop here.

tt email, will always be there.

2008-02-15T03:32:00.000-08:00

Just completed night duty on 5/2/08..
Had wonderful reunion dinner with my family.. esp with my dad n mum's around..
the love is just on the atmosphere....
last year we had our bro in law joining us.
this yr we have my nephew joinin the crowd..
not much ang pau this yr.
but bought lots of tops.. vy happy.

reunion dinner with assh was really2 wonderful..
just cant stand s for the wishes tt she came out with..
hopefully it ll all come true..

love the smile and waved back..

visited bar on 13/2/08, i super like the place..
the voice of tt lady really2 admiring..
she said if my voice as good as her, i can sing in the ward and she wont mind abt it..
she's trying to tell me that i had an ugly voice..
its ok, its alright...
she was thrilled to see the pics.
she said tts the best present she ever get.
home cooked food is really delicious..
received chocolate at 12 midnight.

yest, valentine's day but got to work pm shift.
sad sad sad.................
didnt get to celebrate, nil present.
working am today...

Dr R asked me how did i celebrate my v-day?
i told him I was on pm shift, dint celebrate.
He said at least u have someone there
I replied No, i dun have
He said thats bad..
oh, so sad...........

not that sad actually, still managed to see him.
n today he waved at me..
:-)
I tink i am crazy

2008-02-02T06:33:00.000-08:00

we had a group of yr 3 students who joined us 3 mths ago.
time flew fast.
now they are saying goodbye to us..

here is some little message for each and everyone of them

Fatimah,
dint get to work as a team with u much, but felt that u are really competent in ur work.
i believe u ll be able to cope well in time to come..
recallin of lettin u taking the whole 12 pts, good job.

Nana,
I almost dint get to work together with uat all. but i always remember the smile on ur face.
hardworking girl. continue to smile more. but pay attention cos when u get busy, ur hair bcom messy..

Cynthia,
sweet and humble girl. caring too. enjoyed working with u. its alright to make mistakes cos no one is perfect. the most impt thing is to learn from ur mistakes. U are now more careful and alert. thats very good.

Jian Hui,
I only work once with u. but u impressed me a lot by showing ur care to uncle Ong. really!!
Its a waste that u join IMH cos i really felt the need to retain ppl like u to care for the old ppl.

Song Song,
joyful person. Get to work with u quite often. u handle the workload effectively. 1 advise is be more alert when serving meds to prevent error ya. u are funny too.

Cheng xia,
U followed me most of the time. dun be disappointed or sad when ppl laugh at u abt pronounciation. everyone is learning. its only the matter of time. sorry for rushing u at times cos i want u to be fast enough in doin ur work. We as a nurse have to take care of ourself 1st before we take care of others. so, goin for break to eat is very impt.
dun skip meals whenever u cant finish ur work. its not good for ur own body.
U got to be more brave n strong. do listen to ppl advise.
I really hope that u ll be able to cope well as soon as u join ttsh.
so jia you..

wish everyone there happy holiday, all the best in everything. hope that u ppl will join us in 9b
for those who didnt, keep in contact ya..

2008-02-02T06:10:00.000-08:00

wow.. almost a month dint update anything here..

Too busy? not true la..

Maybe bcos i have spend most of my time with my dearries..

shall recall back all the happy n sad event..

I received my confirmation letter liao.. wow..

I am a confirmed staff now.

No one can use the sentence like " dun follow the unconfirmed staff"

it makes me very angry..

unconfirmed staff is not equal to uncompetent staff!!!!

please bear that in mind.

I ll prove u guys wrong..

Was quite sad that uncle Lou left us, go to AMKCH.

enjoyed talking to him, nice n cute uncle.

He loves us so much, we love him as much as he does too.

He was very touched by us.

Always making fun of him, buy axe oil and fross sweet for him.

Missin him a lot.. and i believed he misses us as much as we miss him..

was quite sad that he left... really2 sad.

thought that i will never see him again, ...

I am very happy..

Yest, had a real bad day cos of bird nest.

She bullied us. went round patrolling in the ward..

I almost wanted to punch her mouth and pull her hair..

she made the ppl on duty felt sad and angry.

she just wanted to find fault on ppl

talk without using brain...

i cant wait for her to disappear from the ward..

and fatty bom bom just listen and listen.

both have equal function of brains...

this is exactly what she is doin..

we had prata at jalan kayu after the hactic day..
feel much better.
my best fren shared something so personnal to me.
thank u for trusting me.
I really felt happy.
I wont judge anything cos i have another part of me too.
lets cheer up and persevere..
I love u guys, plus sc

2008-01-09T07:45:00.000-08:00

Today,
My fren felt sad and angry. So I have the same feeling with her too.
I hope she will be cheered up by my msg.

Down with fever for 2/7. on Mc for 2/7
fever settled, here comes the cough with greenish phlegm.
and now I dun have a voice for 3 days.
everyone is telling me, u better dun talk.
those who didnt see me yet, got a big shock once i opened my mouth,
I become the centre of attraction for my pt,NO, colleagues, Dr and even MSW.
Just realise that talking is so impt to me n my profession.

Get confirmed as a staff in 9b.
Really enjoyed of wad we had on 7/1/08
eventhough during the whole process, cough like hell.
the moment i look at A expression, i just forgotten abt my cough.
its the touched expression.
I enjoyed the company of my 2 disciple too.

thanks so much for dropping by, to pass me the lovely meds.
really, this friendship is just so fantastic.
I hope we will always sharing with 1 another whenever any of us is sad, angry, in trouble or ...

i love u guys so much..

2008-01-06T00:33:00.000-08:00

Its 2008 now.
First blog for the start of a new yr.
had been recalling of wad happened during the past 1 yr..
so much things happened.
sad and happy events mixed up just like ROJAK.

happy that last yr, we created assh.
It was just so fantastic.

4th jan 08 down with fever 39.2
reminded me of wad happen last yr.
1st jan 07 down with dengue, admitted in CDC
time flew passed so fast.

it has been almost 6 mths since i joined TTSH
during this period, I learnt a lot.
I learnt to treasure kinship and friendship more.
life and death was like so common.

Fiona said some words that made me angry.
she wasnt being fair to us.
she blaming us for not being a good role model.
I hated it when ppl point fingers at me.
why is she only blaming the 6 of us? and not everyone?
I am very sure tt the rest also did that.

hope everything will turn out better as new year start.

I am goin on ND again!!!
nothing to comment.
looking forward for tmr to come

2007-12-29T08:51:00.000-08:00

hooray!!!! completed my 3 days of ND liao..
Quite nice days....
1st night, 1 admission + had KFC
2nd night 2 admission
3rd night 2 admission plus 1 pt desat, sent to ICU + had Mac donald n dumpling

overall it was a good ones..

tis morning shocked to hear tt Mr Tan collapsed after i hand over to e morning staff.
Kind of expected this, but not so fast.......
I hope he can make it there.
used to find him irritating, cos he pressed bell every 5 mins.
subsequently the call bell getting lesser.
last night, he vomitted and was quite quiet.
when we did last turning for him, he was quite in a bad state alre.
feels real sad.
we actually provide TLC to him.
we really felt tt he is getting better.

my preceptor has left us.. she is a very joyful person.
although dint get to work with her most of the time, but i really admire her
cos she is very brave and speak up for the staff.
I love her so much.
she always said that she never teach me anything.
she is a real nice preceptor, hope she is doin fine there.
hopefully she wont regret of the decision that she made.
no matter wad ppl say abt her, she is still the same in my heart.
thanks a lot for the guidance.
I ll make u proud as a preceptor.
I hope tt i wont change to a bad nurse..

I am lazy at times. I promised to myself tt this wont be a reason for me not to be nice to my pt

love assh
pls arrange time for cooking session

2007-12-26T02:26:00.000-08:00

everything starts from here..........

memorable moment shall always remain in my heart.

12/12/07

2007-12-26T02:07:00.000-08:00

It has been almost a month since my last posting.. so much to blog. just dun have time.
when i have the time, i dun have the com.
I went thru 1 round of night. my second night was so damn exciting. we did 2 active resus on 1 night.
didnt expect tt man to collapse, cos everything was still very fine 10 mins ago.
Unsure wad time he collapsed, but we managed to revived him, n sent to ICU.
from fever, become tachy, followed by asystole.
Guys, please take each life seriously.
we dun wan to have careless mistake, causing some ppl to lose their love one.
I felt very sad of wad happen that day.

I really2 cant stand her anymore.
I just cant be nice to her anymore. why isnt she sense all this?
I dun wan to do ND for tonight. she insisted of not letting me change my roster.
I am goin to die as long as she is still the planner.
tis month all together did 3 rounds of night. very2 tiring.
last week did 4 am altogether. one of the day, i only slept for 1 hr.

thanks Assh for the moment that u guys spend with me when i am really2 down for that day.
really2 appreciate it.
i felt much2 better. otherwise i dunno how to get back to my original mood.

1st time doin hamper. with love together with cantik. passerby looked at us as if we are the NTUC ppl. its so amazing abt the things inside the hamper.

I love the teamwork tt we had during work, han!! busy, but enjoyable.
friendship is the most wonderful thing i had, as a christmas present for this yr.
love ya

2007-12-02T20:49:00.000-08:00

today on AL, and this will continue till this friday..
No plan for my ALs, dun feel like having it actually.
But cant do anything cos policewoman wants me to take it..

My silly cute mei mei wrote a post abt dying..
She said " maybe if she dies, it wont make any diff"
she means so much to us. how can she said smth like that to make us feel sad.
although i always scold her, that doesnt mean i dun like her..
i scold because i dote and care for her, dun wan her to tired herself.
make sure that she has regular meals..
which one of this is wrong??
as for barney, no one expected that he will die...
it has been 5 yrs as u said. during this period he may actually enjoyed himself upthere.
they dint treat him nicely...
they dote jackie more than him.
at times he really jealous abt it, tts why he kept barking and make noise
I believed this is the best for him..

after listening to my sis's comment for her hospital attachment in changi hosp,
I feel that i really like my proffesion.
I am doin it cos i like the job. not bcos of the pay that i am gonna get at the end of the month.
lots of ppl dun approve their loves to become a nurse..
the reason is they feel like nursing is a dirty job..
U got to clean up ppl's backside.. pack ppl..
come to think of this, i never regretted why i have to clean their backside.
the reason is i treated all of them as patients (the sick ones)
some ppl have the kind of thought "why must i clean ppl backside, clean urine and motion for tt salary"
its really impt for us to like our jobs, only then u can provide wad u tink as the best for ur patients.. only then we can enjoyed our job and everyday tt u gonna spend with ur pt.

sadly to say tt one of the pt had left us again,
he was one of the most cooperative pt, never disturb nurses, full of manners man..
he ended the suffering yest 4 am...
happy that he hadnot have to go through all the pain and sufferin anymore.
sad that he left us and his loves one..
from wad i observed, he was a good grandfather..
he dotes his grandson a lot..
hope u have a peaceful life up there and blessed ur loves one to be strong and healthy in facing any circumstances..
thank u and sorry, cos i feel that i dint give u my best during ur stay in the ward..

policewoman is starting to audit with the "search warrant "given to her.
why is she always doin all this? I really annoyed by her
if she ever bcome NO, and i happen to be in tt ward, i will run away for sure..
i felt tt she really messy with her work as how she handles her bird nest on top of her head..
there is no more team work, wad i can see is pin point of fingers everywhere..
still hope tt the 6 of us can help one another at difficult times..

2007-11-27T00:16:00.000-08:00

hi, i am back....
had spend my birth-day doin night shifts...
my 1st night was not tt nice, cos some ppl pressed call bell like no body business..
my 2nd and 3rd night was enjoyable ones..
I only had 11-12 pts to take care of and it was a peaceful nights i ever had.
my last day we had to pin down a strong man.
he came in for DO. he turned violent when we wanted to tie him down..
Joshua vy cute lor...
he was speaking to the pt on the behalf of the nurses.. ask him not to disturb us
the one and only thing that he never did during his stay in our ward.
Maybe he realised tt 9b actually treated him nicely? who knows?
5 of us inclusive of 2 security ppl was involved.
he was so strong that i was so scared he will box me..
he even threatened us. "u ppl better watch out.."
i enjoyed my nights a lot...
hopefully next round will be like this too..

had a wonderful celebration with my family and frens..
hope my wishes will come true..

our dear team dr gonna leave us soon. hopefully there will be a nice one coming..

sadly to hear tt Mr Ang had passed away. though its expected but still very upset.
suffering had ended for him.

2007-11-22T05:49:00.000-08:00

Me n My best fren
from left: Karen, joycelyn, nicolas, me n mei mei
My cute nephew
me!!!!
doraemon lover..

2007-11-22T05:35:00.000-08:00

Today, is not my bday yet but I already received 2 present.

Special thanks to Willis, my dear sis, mummy of winston toh

its not something expensive but really appreciated deep in my heart.

she gave me a doraemon cake. although it only cost few bucks but it really touched my heart

I stamped this as my 1st gift. thanks mummy... I knew she gonna give me smth else.. I expect a surprise from u wor..

My 2nd present given by my colleagues.. (SONY MP3 )

Dint expect tt gift at all. I really like it vy much.

Thanks to my dearies: Yuhan, Wenxin, Maiyah, Jasmine and Zheng ying

I love u guys!!!!

My 3rd present given by my poly fren.. (Bag)

Thanks to Mei Mei (my best fren) and Jackie (my fighting partner)

tt was one of my favourite type of bag..

Although tis yr I got to do night shift on my birthday, I am still happy cos I have u guys...

I remembered someone said wanna post present to my house, dunno whether he will really do it or not. but I shifted house liao. I didnt give him my add..

so... hm..

2007-11-16T02:23:00.000-08:00

For once, i dislike my work as a junior for today.. I am kind of pissed of by her.
I noe she is sick, but that doesnt mean she can do tt.
I am really getting angry with her. I am sorry, but I am.
We are human beings too.
I took this proffession as my job, i definitely got to have a heart for pt.
dun always said that "they all get their pay every month, they have to do this, do that. "
thats not acceptable. really, i meant it.
to me, satisfaction is what i really need. I want to go and come back from work to have a feeling of satisfaction. Today, I did smth good for my pt.
at times, I am irritated by those "F" pt. but I do pity them.
Normally, i will pay more attention to those who doesnt have carer and needs more help.
I hate those relatives who pretends to care for the pt.
asking for an update over the phone, just to check whether the pt is still alive.
No matter how bad this pt ever treated u, she or he is still ur loves one.
u shld respect her/him.
busy is not the word to be used.
Is ur loves one more impt than money?work?
for me, tts definitely NOT.
dear family, pls love ur loves one. U cant predict what will happen.

2007-11-13T04:23:00.000-08:00

looks so nice and yummy, wanna have a bite?

2007-11-07T01:43:00.000-08:00

anyone can guess who is this????

she is sacrificing herself

to try on a dress for our bdae gal!!!

she is too shy to show her face

recently she lost weight too..

cos she dint have TLC lunch