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Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Recalling what had happened before my night duty...
had 2 deaths within 3 days of my shift.
1- desat my time, gasping till asystole end of my shift. breathe out the last breath and drooled out greenish fluid from his mouth. he is single. however, had a nice relatives. the niece cried very badly. kind of like envy the kind of relationship that they had.
2- throw fits and stared to the ceiling blankly in front of my eyes. did full active resuscitation all the way. shocked him 6x, adrenaline x8, atropine x4, gelofundin, sodium bicarbonate.
in the end, have to give up his life cos he is not responded to the treatment.
I am very sad at tt point of time.
i tot i have done my best to him, but i am wrong. his daughter very angry and scolded us cos she cant see him for the last time. felt terrible.
we did our best , contacted relatives.
instead of gratitude, what we get was scolding.
I noe that she felt terrible cos she cant see her dad.
anyway, finally he responded to my email after LONG period of time. he is in hawaii now.
happy to the max . KIV going for renal course.
life is unpredictable, pls cherish every moment
3:39 AM
Sunday, May 18, 2008
missing assh lots, meet up soon
life is unpredictable, pls cherish every moment
4:55 AM
" ich liebe dich " means i love you
life is unpredictable, pls cherish every moment
4:52 AM
Friday, May 9, 2008
It has been a while since i last updated my blog.
It ended with mr kanghoe making my blood vessels burst.
I dunno whether tis space purposefully reserved for him or wad.
However, it will continue from him again
Mr tham passed away after my day off. sad though, but at least he didnot have to suffer anymore.
Mr kanghoe, I dunno wad really happened to him.
Yest, called up ward few times, noone picked up.
At last, when maiyah picked up, she broke the news to me, i almost couldnt believe what i heard.
Mr chua passed away.
The man who always been asking for water, ice, coffee, biscuits, soup, oil , cream to apply,no longer there breathing.
he can no longer asked for any request.
no matter what he had done, i dun tink he deserved to go in such away.wish u all the best and be good when u meet ur "jesus" there..
Visited Jas's blog and had a word with her last night..
disappointment from her, really can be heard through the phone.
I guess maybe i put in quite a big part of my heart to my patient.
cos most of the time their death seems to have some impact on me.
reminded me to cherish all the people surrounding me.
even if they are once so bad before.
the people in the ward thinks that we are playing with MC
especially on that day, me, maiyah, wx on mc. happened that jas on DO and han on AL.
they may be thinking that we are enjoying ourselves.
I took mc on my day off. most of them said that i am stupid, go n take mc on day off.
I am really in a very bad condition that i have to take mc on my day off.
I am not tt kind that will take mc because i am tired of workload in the ward.
i have the feel for my pt and my other colleagues that work extra hard when others take mc!!
I actually expected that kind of response.
i am down with urticaria, dunno arising from what kind of thing that i am allergic to.
still cant find what is the cause.
puffy face, red patches all over the body plus the itchiness drives me NUTs!
visited ward and ttsh clinic today.
partly wants them to know how badly i am , not to gossip behind me.
mc extended till 11/5 (total of 5 days)
treated with prednisolone 10 mg bd, atarax 25 mg tds
but it doesnt seem to work..
kiv blood test if still not getting better till next week.
Dad and Mum are coming soon..
love :-)
life is unpredictable, pls cherish every moment
2:56 AM
